What I did differently during my Successful IVF Cycle....
“God restores everything. When I submit the broken pieces of my life to Him, He restores me to a beauty far more than what I prayed for"
First off, I would like to apologize for not blogging like I had once promised. That mom life thing tends to gets the best of me sometimes and I selfishly get wrapped up in spending all my time with Henry, my husband, my family and friends and working out. I vow to begin blogging more regularly because I know how many people I am helping.
Y’all have NO idea the amount of people, near and far, some I know and some I don’t that have contacted me over the past year for IVF support. I have so many supporters that I have a spreadsheet for everyone so I can make sure I keep up with where they are in the process. It makes me so happy that I am able to help people along their journey through Infertility. God knows, it isn’t an easy one. I know that while I went through it how I wished I had someone, just one person to ask questions and get details from, so I am glad I can be that person to so many people.
So back to what this Blog is about: What did I do differently during my successful IVF Cycle?
I. LET. GO.
I let go of everything! I let go of control, anger and hate. I let go of judgement, narrow mindedness, and structure. It wasn’t a giving up kind of letting go, it was an acceptance type of letting go.
For those that know me, I hate not being in control of my life, and with IVF, you have NO control. My first two failed cycles, I still tried to control. It was all I thought about, it consumed my entire life. Even though it was an uncontrollable situation, I still allowed it to control me by occupying my every thought. With every failed cycle, I began getting more and more angry and feeling very hateful. I was angry at God and I began to feel hate towards everyone that had a child that they didn’t take care of, that they didn’t love enough to see everyday, that they didn’t provide a loving home for. I was very very angry and hateful. I questioned God everyday why he provided people “like that” with children but yet he wouldn’t provide my husband and I with one.
I have never really believed in alternative medicine. I hate taking anything and to me the word “medicine” means I can’t cure something naturally. So on my final cycle, I let go of judgement and narrow-mindedness and took the advice of an old high school friend and turned to acupuncture. Now I am not here to try and tell you that is what worked, the point of this Blog is not to sell my IVF people on acupuncture, it is simply to sell you on letting go. I researched it as best as I could, and through friends, contacts and google, I found a very reputable IVF acupuncturist who would come to the fertility clinic with me the day of our embryo transfer.
Patience, we all know I never had it! Well I let go. I let go of that always needing to know. I let go of always caring what people thought. I felt free, I felt lighter (no, not weight wise because we all know I was HUGE), I felt one with God.
I let everything go and put everything in the hands of God, and look what happened......... On the seventh day of March a child of God was born. Henry Curtis Armstrong was delivered to us just when God knew we were ready for him, and he is perfect!