My battle with Infertility///Up Close and Personal with an IVF Athlete....Part 12.... Pregnancy Week 21
PART 12: WEEK 21 OF PREGNANCY
I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord. (Psalm 40:1-5)
I chose this Psalm because of what it means to me. Broken down, in th beginning, we waited (maybe not so patiently, lol) one full year to become pregnant. He lifted me up every time I fell, every time I heard "you're not pregnant." He set me on the path to belief. Belief in Him and belief in myself.
So now at almost 21 weeks pregnant, how are things going? Well, the question I get the most is "How are you feeling?" I am so quick to answer without really thinking. All my answers are physical answers. I feel fat, bloated, tired, my feet are swollen, I'm nauseous. However, if I stop and think, just for a minute, which for those that know me is very difficult for me to do, my feelings don't have to be physical. In all honesty, I feel scared, I feel excited, I feel anxious but most of all I feel BLESSED. I am blessed that we are where we are, 21 weeks. I am blessed that so far we know we have a healthy baby boy inside. I am blessed that my husband and I have a bond like no other. That he has been by my side for the last year through all of this. It isn't just the wife that goes through IVF, it is the wife, husband and marriage. I am blessed that we were able to maintain our love, laughter and belief in each other when you see so many couples fall apart when going through a stress like this.
So, my goal over the next 17-19 weeks will be to cherish the fact that Team Armstrong is expanding and worry less over the physical effects.