My battle with Infertility///Up Close and Personal with an IVF Athlete....Part 14... When 2 Weeks becomes 2 Months
Before Henry was born, I was asked the question, “How long are you taking off of work, a few months?” I laughed at that question and said, “No, two weeks!”
As I sit here writing this blog, it has been six weeks since Henry was born and I have yet to go back to work. You see, before Henry was here, all I knew was work. Everyday was a similar routine for me. Alarm went off at 5:03, I got dressed, made coffee and drove to the gym. I coached classes, trained my clients and got in a workout. I came home, worked on business stuff, made dinner and watched TV with my husband before going to bed and doing it all over again. For 17 years, I have been a business owner, in the Fitness Industry helping people change their lives. I have given 100+% into other peoples goals, progress and happiness in the health aspect of life. I have helped some and have also been unable to help some, but I am ok with that.
Now that Henry is here, and I have finally become a mom, I feel that my life has new meaning. I feel even a deeper sense of purpose. I still wake up at 5, only this time my tiny human is my alarm clock. The biggest difference is that I just can’t bear to leave him just yet. Each morning when I see that smile, I am reminded of the struggle it took to have him. Each evening when I am going through his bedtime routine, I am reminded of how blessed I am that our third and FINAL round of IVF worked. I think about all of you, who prayed with us, for us and alongside us to get here.
But the one thing that I have learned, is that you will never understand the bond, the want and the desire to stay home until you have your tiny human yourself.
So for now, I will continue to stay home just a little bit longer and enjoy the time that I have with him. Do I miss my old routine, YES! Do I miss coaching and training, YES! Do I miss adult conversations, YES! But I don’t want to miss this precious time with Henry.
So, I will be back, I will continue and I will get back on schedule, but for now, I am enjoying these mommy moments.........