My battle with Infertility///Up Close and Personal with an IVF Athlete....Blog 15... My New Journey.......Making Changes
My New Journey.......
As many of you already know, after 17 years, 4 of which were here in Myrtle Beach, I am no longer a business owner. My husband and I have sold CrossFit Crescent Coast and I am now “just” a mom! Before Henry was born, I used to imagine what it was like to be “just” a stay at home mom. I imagined sleeping in till 7, enjoying my morning coffee while watching the news and being able to workout for hours and do all the things that I was never able to do while working............. WRONG! There is NO “just” to being a mom!
My days are busier then they ever have been. I barely sit down unless Henry is feeding, and I realize now just how lazy I was before. I don’t think I have watched a full TV show since Henry arrived 7 weeks ago. Instead, my days consist of waking up when he does (between 6-7), feeding him, making bottles, changing diapers, doing laundry (lots and lots of laundry), going for walks (because we can’t forget about Joey), and making dinners all while trying to figure out how to raise a newborn......These tiny humans don’t come with directions! My days fly by, but I couldn’t be happier. We finally have our perfect little family!
I have my family and some of my friends to thank for the past 7 weeks. For checking in, for stopping by to bring food, coffee, fresh flowers or just to say hello! It means the world to us just to see the smile on Henry’s face when he meets the people who mean the most to us!
So a lot of you have asked how I feel now that I sold the business..... Well, honestly, I feel a little lost, a little disconnected and a little sad. However I feel VERY HAPPY! Over the last 7 weeks, I have had a lot of sleepless nights and a lot of time to think. I’ve had time to think about just how stressful the past 17 years have been. From 5am wake-ups to continuously posting on social media, to trying to market a business as best as possible..... I’m tired! I will miss it 100% there’s no doubt, but when I look into my son’s eyes, when I hug him just a little tighter and when I feel his soft skin against my cheek, I know that I made the right decision, and I have NO REGRETS!
You see, I am an old mom! I don’t mean that in a negative way either. I have had my “me” time. I have had years and years of freedom, independence and doing everything that I wanted. I’ve had years to go to work, run a business and devote my time to making other people healthy. I don’t regret anything. I now want to devote my time to my husband and my son. It hasn’t been an easy year and a half for us, so I deserve happiness now. That’s right, I said that I deserve to be happy! I deserve to give 100% of my time and effort now to my husband, Henry and God!
So I will continue to offer my Personal Training and Small Group Classes, but I can now do it because I want to, and not because I have to! And that, is quite possibly the best feeling in the world(next to holding my precious little baby)!