My battle with Infertility///Up Close and Personal with an IVF Athlete....Blog 18..... Nothing Else Matters
“I am proud of many things in my life but nothing beats being a mother."
As I sit here and look into my son's eyes as he smiles widely back at me, I realize at this point in my life nothing else matters.
For the first couple months after Henry, I was shocked and extremely hurt by the people that didn't want to be a part of my life any longer. People that I considered true friends. People that I helped make a way for themselves in the gym, people that I spoke to on a daily basis and told my darkest secrets to. You see, when Henry was born, I thought that those people would be just as excited for us knowing the hardship we had gone through. They were there every step of the way with us. But things change and that's life. You realize who cares, who doesn't, and who truly never did.
So as I sit here, with my miracle son in front of me, I vow to let those people go. There are too many "true" friends and family in my life to worry about the ones that aren't worried about us.
Children change your life...... they make you a better person.
For me, Henry has given me a sense of patience, compassion and love. Not only for myself but for the immediate friends and family around us. He has taught me to stop judging people and their actions. He has brought new friends into my life that I am beyond thankful for and he has brought me closer other friends and family, and for that there are no words.
I wouldn't change where I am or who I'm going through life with for the world. This child was given to us from God, because he felt that we endured enough pain and heartache and knew that we were ready. Each day, my timeline and my time hop remind me just where we were one year ago. We were wishing, hoping, and praying that this final round would work. We had no idea what was in store for us, but we made it as a couple and a family and there is nothing that I could say or do to express how happy I am and how I have changed.................