Sometimes it’s the most random things that make you feel thankful.....

Sometimes it’s the most random things that make you feel thankful.....

“No camera could ever capture the look in her eyes and the feeling in her heart when she looks at him"

As I sit here drinking my coffee alone on a beautiful Sunday morning at the beach, my little one sleeps as peaceful as can be. As he sleeps, I glance over at him and behind him sits his brand new highchair at the kitchen table. I suddenly break down. Tears begin rolling down my face. These are happy tears. These are tears of strength, fight, faith and hope. These tears are different than last years tears. These tears and pure joy! 

Last year I was at my lowest low, but hid it as best as I could with a smile and a repeated “I’m ok” whenever anyone asked. Last year I only dreamed of having a child, let alone this perfect little boy that rests peacefully in front of me. I only dreamed of doing all of the mom-life things that I watched my sister and friends do. I longed and hoped to hold my child and watch him grow. So as I sit here and look at his high chair, I realize, this it it!!!! This is my life. I have the life that I only dreamed of, prayed for and longed for. My baby boy is growing up right in front of my eyes. 

Mom life is the best life! I say that every day, and everyday I mean it. Even through all the sleepless nights (not anymore though), diaper changes, throw up and cries, it truly is the best life. It is a lifestyle not to be taken for granted. It is a lifestyle where tiny little eyes are always watching you. It is a lifestyle where you can actually make an impact on another person’s life. It is a lifestyle that until your in it, you will never fully understand the meaning of unconditional love. I would do anything and give anything for this boy and I can’t wait to watch him grow. 

***This time of year will always hold a special place in my heart, as this time last year we were in our dreaded two week wait of our last IVF round, waiting to see if we were pregnant.***

 

My baby didn’t come with instructions, did yours?

My baby didn’t come with instructions, did yours?

Am I a bad mom for feeling that way?

Am I a bad mom for feeling that way?